Friday, October 1, 2010

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I seriously hate this holidays..

Have been crying for the past few days.
Just feeling really sad and heartbroken..
I really wish time could turn back.
Maybe things will be very different from now.
I starting to regret coming to this course...
Lots of stress.
Really worried about the future..
Worried for myself.
Sarcastic remarks keep playing back in my head...

I am super weak and super sensitive.
I cry super easily that i myself find it really scary..
Whenever i cry at home, i will try my best to hide in the toilet so that my parents cannot see me cry..
But its always hard to hide my red eyes from them.
Especially from my mother, who always checks on what i am doing..
I hate it when she asks why i am crying...
It makes me cry even more that my tears can never stop.
I wish there was a way to stop them...

Having some r/s problems lately..
I am really at a loss.
I dunno what to do...
I cant let my parents know.... they will probably say something sarcastic.
Haiz...

Didnt attend the workshop yesterday..
Cried too much the day before and didnt feel like going out.
Not going to attend the last day of workshop later on..
Sculpey and drawings incomplete-nothing to present.
I feel like quitting school... since i am so afraid to face everything.
I am a useless weak person.
I really miss the old Me ALOT!

28 more days till i am 18, but i am not looking forward to it..

My legs are covered with bites after a day at HK's ocean park..
The itchiness is really driving me crazy....
I hope the old and always smiling Me can come back soon.
I really hope so..
I hate this kind of life....
Hate myself for being so weak..

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