18.

13 more mins till my birthday is over...

and its such a lonely night. 

我要快乐 - 张惠妹

sensitive skin.. :(

My left leg looks horribly disfigured now..

I doubt i will even step out of the house for the next few days. :(

On Saturday morning, i woke up to find around 10 bites in a row on my left leg!

Shocked of course!

The bites from Hong Kong have just recovered leaving behind scars and now there are new bites..

Some of my relatives suspected it was bedbugs.

I went home and checked my bed but found nothing...

Even sprayed insectiside and my room stinked!

Went to the clinic yesterday morning.

Had to wait for more than hour before it was my turn to see the doctor..
The doctor said i was bitten by some kind of fly, probably flew into my house from the trees outside...
He gave me a cream and some medicine.
One visit to the doctor cost $27... EX!

my poor leg~ :(

EMO

I seriously hate this holidays..

Have been crying for the past few days.

Just feeling really sad and heartbroken..

I really wish time could turn back.

Maybe things will be very different from now.

I starting to regret coming to this course...

Lots of stress.

Really worried about the future..

Worried for myself.

Sarcastic remarks keep playing back in my head...

I am super weak and super sensitive.

I cry super easily that i myself find it really scary..

Whenever i cry at home, i will try my best to hide in the toilet so that my parents cannot see me cry..

But its always hard to hide my red eyes from them.

Especially from my mother, who always checks on what i am doing..

I hate it when she asks why i am crying...

It makes me cry even more that my tears can never stop.

I wish there was a way to stop them...

Having some r/s problems lately..

I am really at a loss.

I dunno what to do...

I cant let my parents know.... they will probably say something sarcastic.

Haiz...

Didnt attend the workshop yesterday..

Cried too much the day before and didnt feel like going out.

Not going to attend the last day of workshop later on..

Sculpey and drawings incomplete-nothing to present.

I feel like quitting school... since i am so afraid to face everything.

I am a useless weak person.

I really miss the old Me ALOT!

28 more days till i am 18, but i am not looking forward to it..

My legs are covered with bites after a day at HK's ocean park..

The itchiness is really driving me crazy....

I hope the old and always smiling Me can come back soon.

I really hope so..

I hate this kind of life....
Hate myself for being so weak..